Lately (maybe for a while now) every day can feel out of control, scary, frustrating, etc.. Uncertainties, anxieties, disappointments, worrying are extreme feelings. That which is extreme, according to Ayurvedic teaching, is too much movement. For me, that excessive movement really knocks me off of my feet and I feel up-rooted and I feel afraid, insecure, inadequate--you name it! Sometimes, I fail to use the tools that I know will somewhat settle my heart and then I remember....
One of the almost immediate balms I turn to when I'm feeling sensitive to the world is to literally place my hands into the ground, onto a plant, or to walk slowly. It's amazing how connecting to something so beautifully and powerfully stable can remind us that, although the world around us is swirling, there is still a huge oak tree above me and I can create a vegetable garden to feed my family and friends. I can snip some flowers to bring into my house or pinch off the dead leaves from a plant so it may thrive. I love to walk slowly and with the intention of offering the ground kindness so maybe someone picks up some of that love with their steps.
When my mind starts wonder and is filled with worry and insecurity, I start to study and focus on fine-tuning my yoga practice. Today, I went to a my favorite yoga studio in town (Soul Fire Collective) and it was precisely what I needed. The teacher, Tim, presented a challenging practice that I could bring a lot of focus to and I could dive deeply into my body and breath. I didn't move at the pace he was suggesting. I moved with my long breaths and focused on transitions and alignment and balance. I felt strong and clear and in control (as much as that can happen). I have great intentions to go to the 5:15am Ashtanga practice tomorrow before our 7am class so I am a better teacher for you.
Over-scheduling, background music, running errands, traffic, and clutter are examples of excessive stimulation and extreme movement and they really fill up the needed space in life. Is there anything that can shift off of your calendar (not the things that have to happen but the items that maybe are just getting to be too much)?
My dear, brilliant friend, Krista told me years ago. about how she drives without the radio on. I love music but silence is sometimes all that's need to settle some of the anxious thinking. It can be a bit daunting to sit in silence but give it a try and see what you notice. In silence, maybe you're able to simply understand if you need food, a nap, a cry, or a hug. If I want to listen to music but not get frazzled by it, I'll play a violin concerto or some pretty instrumentals (sometimes lyrics kick up the over-stimulation for me).
These were just some of my ideas. What works for you? Please share.
I hope you have a day that is grounded and full and that you are happy. I hope you know you are good and strong and capable. I hope you know you are filled with kindness and love and that you are loved by so many.